"dearly departed certain tragedy when we started off we were such an indestructible team when you had your plans, i had my dream"

i
keep
falling
deeper
and deeper
why
can't
i
be
rescued
from
this
dark
abyss
someone
save
me
quick
before
i
fall
to
far
save
me
from
myself
self destruction
is
in
my
path
quit
before
it
lasts
finally
found
the
one
life
is
getting
better
than
you
think
get over yourself before you fail everyone else

"things aren't the same anymore, some nights get so bad you almost pick up the phone"

love is like a ticking time bomb waiting to blow up but you never truly know what it feels like until you find it. it's the best feeling in the world.

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"keep your friends close, your enemies closer"

Friend·ship (frěnd'shĭp') n.
The quality or condition of being friends.

1. A friendly relationship: formed many new friendships over the summer.
2. Friendliness; good will: a policy of friendship toward other nations.

last i checked friendship was supposed to go both ways, not one or the other. a true friend is supposed to be there for the other whenever needed, correct? not one friend be there and the other not doing a damn thing for their so-called best friend. apparently, some people are disillusioned by this idea. some people are selfish and attention seeking. it's pretty pathetic. i wish it were easier to trust people but more and more each day someone has to ruin it for me. i hope you see this. i hope it's a low blow. i hope your feelings are hurt just as much as mine were not once, but twice.
i'm through with you.
crashandburn.

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the butterflies in my stomach, they could bring me to my knees

love was never enough for you, was it? falling in love with you was probably the hardest thing for me but it happened and as usual, rejection came knocking on my door. the tears i cry every night are because of you. the pain i feel is because of you. i've never fallen so hard. "
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams maybe then you'd know how I feel" i should just give up, love will never find me and i'll be like those little old ladies with a million cats. i'll be made into folklore, but i guess that's alright because you're all i ever wanted. you're all i ever loved but i'll never be enough. next time, i should keep my mouth shut because what i mean never comes out. my fingers always type the opposite of what my brain tells them. permanent foot in mouth disease. i'm too stubborn so i wont apologize, it's always been hard but i'm sorry. at night i pretend to whisper in your ear. i love you, i look for shooting stars in the night sky wishing you were here. wishing that wish sometimes makes it more reality even though it never will. wishing we'd become one. 0101. i think i'm makin' history with this blog because this is the longest entry i've probably ever written and all for you too. just remember the good times...

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making the invisible visible

i need to be rescued like sailors marooned on an island.
i'm stuck in this lifetime like a ticking bomb.
i need (uni)some sleep like i could use a shot in the head.
im sick of being hurt and lead on.
im tired.
i just want to be left alone but then again i want the company.
i want to kiss you on the lips
kiss your eyelids goodnight.
i
miss
you
but i'm done.
i
love
you
but i'm gone.

"until you leave i am alone"
my feelings are never taken into account when things happen, i wonder why.